kat ^3^

its been long time since i wrote the last page here….gosh… i have so many prblems here in hk…..  have a new work but full of stress…

well, what i want to share with is that i fell inlove with someone else… who is working with me in the same office…actually im working n a salon as a receptionist….he is a stylist…!!! how ever,  just broke up with my bf because of him…. but he also have a gf…. he’s trying to break up with her….  time is passing away….cant wait anymore…i feel so helpless…..!!! any one can help me here?????? the hell  i want but i can get it…maybe i dont deserve it..do i ??

i woke up in this am and i felt so lonely….no one beside me, no one to talk with, no one to lead on…..i’m so afriad to be alone!!!! im not used with it!!!

im always thinking of friends n DVO…. i always cried of wanting to stay in DVO…… i really do hate HK…

when i saw pics of m friends…..in the beach, in the bar….anywhere there’re happy…… but why im not included?  i want to be part of them…. i really should’nt chose to come back in the first place…

damnit, i really hate this place…..i really want to be totally disapeared!!!

maybe that will be better for me if i was not born…life is so complicated!!!!

It’s 2:30 in the morning!! same time in DVO…!! =) i cant slip after chatting with my cousin, weLL…. i have a whole plan na tlga…..with my cousin actually…..i hope it will come true!!! =)

we’re planning to save our money then uwi mi sa dvo next yr maybe march ( kung pwde lng! ) , then have our own business —> open internet cafe!!!! thats what i want, ‘coz i really wanted to stay in dvo for good….!!!! as in grabeh me sick of dvo!!!

i was planning to work in japan….but i dont think it works already coz maybe i need to work there for how many yrs bago pa pwde ako stay sa dvo for good…dba?! hahay!!! yan na yan, usap na mi ng insan ko, tapos gus2 nya rin may business jan sa dvo, GOOD!!! we planned everything, we discussed everything about openning internet cafe…! ang kulang lng ay pera!!!! if my plan works, then i will be there in dvo next yr and stay there for good!!! because of it, im thinking of it over and over again kaya di ako maka2log hangang nygn…. i think i’ll know by next week kung maka2loy ba pa ang plano namin ng insan ko!!!!

shit, i miss dvo so mucchh….damnit! guys, wish me luck!!!

All my bags are packed Im ready to go
Im standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye.
But the dawn is breaking its early morning
The taxi is waiting, he is blowing his horn
Already Im so lonesome, I could cry

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you wait for meHold me like you never let me go

Im leaving on a jetplane,I dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

There is so many times Ive let you down
So many times Ive played around
I tell you now they dont mean a thing.
Every place I go I think of you
Every song I sing I sing for you.
When I come back I wear your wedding-ring

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you wait for meHold me like you never let me go

Im leaving on a jetplane,I dont know when Ill be back again
Oh babe I hate to go

Now the time has come to leave you
One more time let me kiss you
Close your eyes, and Ill be on my way
Dream about the days to comeI wont have to leave alone, and I wont have to say:

So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you wait for meHold me like you never let me go

Im leaving on a jetplane,I dont know when Ill be back again.
Im leaving on a jetplane,I dont know when Ill be back again.
Im leaving on a jetplane,I dont know when Ill be back again.

Oh babe I hate to go.

i really love this song but the same way i hate this song too…. i always think of him because of this song and i also cried so many times because of it…!!!!! leaving on a jet plane, dont know when i’ll be back again….true tlga!!! miss him a lot…!! hope he’s doing fine there….hahay….it’s telling my feelings deep inside my heart~~~!! i dont want to go……

WeLL 3x….im free na…its really good to be single again..! =) I just finished my long race relationship last week!!! Kapoy na maysafo maguyab2x oi…. Duh“` we just look like brother and sister only…. Kc sanay lng kami with each other…!!! 1 yr and 5 months…. Para sainyo di yan matagal…pero para sakin, matagal na yan…kaya lng, im not happy rin in this relationship….!!! Many of my friends told me to break up with him coz they know I don’t love him anymore…..but u know its hard to say it “ I want to break up with you!!’

Hahay…we were live in and I was working in his office…so we can see each other all the time…. Baka sawa na rin!!! Palagi nlng kami naga-away yan…. Kahit it’s a small thing, we can fight a whole day or maybe more….!!!!!

He maybe a very good friend to you because he’s so nice and friendly but he’s really not a good bf…. Boring sya kasama….don’t say in d office, sympre we had to work!!! But when we were in the house na, he always play with his computer, ok then I read my books…. Para di kami kilala…!! Kapoya oi…. Its really good to be single again!!!

Di na ako sanay ngyn, kasi I used to talk with him, eat with him, sleep beside of him!!! Now im totally lonely…!!! Cge lang, at least im happy now! =) no need to cry anymore!!!! =) but I need to thank nickel for spending time with me! Friends forever! =)

whats the meaning of ‘I Love You’ ? How do you feel when you’re telling your partner "I Love You!"

lab mo cya kaya sabhn mo cya ng "I Love You!" dba?
there’s a case……3 yrs na cla pero nagbreak cla dahil na may mga chismis daw about sa boy….!!! grabeh….
when you love him, u should trust him dba? if u cant trust him, dont tell that you do love him!!! its a shame!!!

now she has a new bf…so HAPPY…!! but did she ever think about her EX??? how pitty is he now?! huh?!

kapoy na cya sa uyab2x, ayaw nya na daw magcommit kahit kanino….gina-iwasan nya mga chismis….
ayaw nya magpunta2x sa mga gimickan para iwasan nya lang ng mga chimis…!!!!

alam mo….this boy really loves this gurL…i know it!!! he did alot of things its just because of her…!!!
im so jealous of her……why she cant treasure him?! why she cant love him the same he did?! selos tlga ako!!!

i love him but i cant have him…..she loved him but she put him away….!!! is that the way how you love a person??
nah…!! i still have feelings for him eventhough we’re apart for 4 yrs na…yah maybe he changed na,
pero d2 parin ang feelings ko…i dont care what he became to….as long as i still have feelings for him,
i’ll always be here for him!!! we’re friends naman rin eh…!!! =)

nobody knows what will happen in the future….baka after one yr, may anak na sya…baka ako rin!!!!
but 1 thing for sure, im gona wait for him until my feelings faded.!!!!!